Time To Change....

I fought this "change" for a while...! Now many of you will say...your gay...your coming out of the closet! NO! That is not it! You see, I am fighting against the way my parents raised me. My parents raised me to be caring, giving, a good friend, always to take care of others, to always tell and show people what they mean to me. I have always displayed quiet confidence, have never been a "look at me" "look at me" kinda person. I always viewed these people as lacking self confidence, self esteem and being scared that they will not be noticed by others so they had to put themselves on a pedestal, cause no one else would. So our society has change to make us fight for survival, to fight for what we want...and here I am giving to others, being a good friend, showing people how much I care and doing things for others without getting anything back in return. This is ALL going to change. I am done being stepped on and being taken advantage of. I am going to start living life for me, doing things for me, and taking care of me....then putting everyone else SECOND! My family SECOND than my friends THIRD. I am done caring what others think or view of me. I am done needing something, asking a friend and they are always to busy or have an excuse why they can't help me. SO....it is time for a change, and it won't be an easy one for me to make!